murphy meadow trail

murphy meadow trail, originally uploaded by Ilikethenight.

I would just adore walking on that path right now. I know I have been awol for a while, life got hectic for a bit but I am back until the next speedbump tries to take me out. :-)

Summer is here in full force and I do not like the humid weather here in the South east. Back in California it gets hot but not humid and at night if your near the coast you get these wonderful off shore breezes to cool things off. Even up in Sacramento, where it gets pretty blazing at times, at night it cools off so nicely. I recall the way the hay smelled so sweet at night up there.

I have been under some stress lately, stuff I can not change or do anything about. That is a awful place to be, you can do nothing to alter your own reality. Illness sucks, its mental and physical and emotionally trying for the person who has to shoulder all the responsibilities of life and kids and home.

We need more support here in this country, and I am all for a better health care system. Right now you have to be rich to get taken care of, if you are poor your loved ones are going to end up dying of their illness.

Yep, I am a person who gets scared really easy, and I try to run away and hide when ever things get scary like it is now. I want to be on this path instead of having to figure out how to deal with a situation I have no control over and frankly... I am just me, a person not a god or some genius -- I do NOT know what to do. :-(

I am not able to deal, to be the strong person... not anymore.

I will be here each day from now on and maybe even have a few posts about some TV I have been watching when I can.

Hugs to all my friends